Milagros ( Millie ) Hunsinger

You would be so proud, Josh potty trained himself. We figured out the only reason he wanted his Pull ups was because they had cars on them. A few pairs of Cars big boy pants and he is a big boy now!! You would be amazed at his vocabulary, he talks sooooo much, he even knows a lot of Spanish!!! He is getting so tall and his feet are HUGE! He hates hair cuts, so he is looking a little scruffy, but he is still a blonde version of MIchael. We got a trampoline, Josh loves it. He is a little dare devil!! Alex is still a cautious lil man. He is his daddy's twin. Everywhere we go, strangers comment that he looks just like Michael. Not only does he look like his Dad, he has his temperament, silly sense of humor and is a biter!!! We are going to his well visit in a few days and we are going to get the order for his echo cardio- gram. I know his heart is better. He is such a joker. He is not saying many words, but he does say; Mamma, Dad, Em, Bubbles, Pretzels and Nana. The boys still kiss your picture and say good night, but I bet you know that. Alex started waving and saying bye bye too. Kiley is so beautiful. She is rolling over, both ways, almost sitting up all by herself, she is eating baby food, and is a wonderfully happy baby. She does not sleep through the night yet, but that is ok. She has this smile, and this laugh that can melt anyone's heart. Her hair is thickening up, and is coming in black, she has Michael's hair. As for Michael, he is having fun (a bit too much) with his jeep and is keeping very busy. I left an invitation to Kiley's baptism on the collage of you. I know it sounds silly, but I just felt the need to "send you an invitation". I wanted to call you again, Michael is at work and I am lonely and the kids have changed so much. I wish you were here to see them.

I am still not able to process all of this. I bought frames the other day, each one said Nana in one way or another. I tole Michael it would be a good project for him and the boys to go through and look at all the pictures of you and to pick their favorites and frame them. The frames are now on their dressers and the boys kiss you and say good night Nana. I promise, they will always know how much you loved them, and how good you were to them. I am so grateful that Kiley got to meet you, feel you and hear you tell her you love her. I am so hear broken that my kids are going to miss a life time of memories with you. I miss sitting next to you in the recliners at your house and just talking about nothing. I miss having someone not sugar cote things and just be honest and up front with me. I miss having someone to talk to at night when I am lonely while Michael is gone. I don't have anyone to listen to my stories about the kids that actually cares, or anyone that understands how desperately I miss Michael. I miss your advice on things like arguments with my own mom. Speaking of my mom, she refuses to put away the ceramic Santa's you gave her a few Christmases back. She loses it every time I talk about you. She loved being a grandma with you. She called you her "Buddy". She misses you. Josh saw the neighbor's mom and started shrieking with joy, calling "Nana, my Nana!!" I had to leave the room when Michael showed him it was not you, he sat at the door, almost as if he was waiting for you to appear. I know we had very different opinions on just about everything, but, you were the only person in my life to make me feel like it was okay to agree to disagree. I miss that, I miss the way you would clap your hands once, as if to end the conversation at just the right time, put on a smile and change the subject. I guess there is a lot that I took for granted. I wish you could see Kiley. You were right (as I am coming to find out you were more often the not) I love having a daughter more then you could explain to me. She is amazing, so pretty. I think her eyes might end up green. She is starting to smile and laugh, she coos and babbles a lot. Alex is so silly. Everyone tells me how much like his dad that he looks. He is a mini Michael in every way, even his temperament. He still bites though!!! Josh is the one that I hurt for the most. He loves you so so very much and he talks about you. He is amazing, he is so smart. He is going to start pre school in the fall! At night, I wrap the boys in the blankets you gave them for Christmas and tell them that they are getting Nana hugs. Please, watch over them, and Kiley, I promise I will not let them forget you. Millie, I miss you.

Mom, So many things have happened since you left. Josh wont stop talking and Alex is developing his own opinion. Kiley...she's so beautiful...though as colicky as Josh was. All of us in this house miss you so much. Katie misses you calling and asking about the kids. I show your pictures to the kids to make sure they don't forget you. I really can't get my thoughts out right now. I'll try later. I love you and miss you so much.

Hey Mom.. Edison & Madison went to see the Easter Bunny and i know how you LOVED when i sent you new pics of them.. they are getting big.. Edison actually didn't even want to take the pic with the Easter Bunny cause I think he thinks hes too old now... lol.. just look at his face in the pic.. so funny! Madison was ecstatic ofcourse!! Shes so looking foward for the egg hunt and the chocolate bunny (so am I!!)

 

I miss you so much!! The kids miss you.. Edison drew you a picture when i told him you had passed away.. I have it hanging in my room.. its so sweet..

 

We Love and Miss You Dearly !!!

Hi Mom.. Its Me Again...

Just came to say hello,
I miss you mom so very much,
more then you'll ever know.
I see your face almost every night,
in every twinkling star.
I feel that you're still with me,
whether it be near or far.
I know you didn't want to die,
but a part of me died too.
Ill never be the same again,
because I don't have you.
Remember when I called you, mom,
it was almost every day.
But you just kept on talking,
you never pushed me away.
I wish that I could turn back time,
if only for one day.
So I could hold you in my arms,
and kiss your tears away.
I will always remember you mother,
even though we're far apart,
and the love I have for you,
will remain within my heart.